01 - The Butterfly Effect (domino effect)

I have heard of the Butterfly effect before and until now, everything about it just seemed either a bit too consequential or a bit confusing at times.

I am happy to say that I stand corrected, and it might be true what they say that at times inaction is indeed an action in itself, seeing how the things I have chosen to not devote my 'precious' time and effort towards, could have very well kickstarted the beginning to an end of many relationships ~ some which I didn't value at the time.

The domino/butterfly effect, the sad reality of life and existence. Being aware of it and understanding the mechanism of it has been more like opening Pandora's Box for me.

I guess ignorance truly is bliss, because there is joy in being oblivious to some realities of life. "Kura Uone Mwanangu" the saying goes - you'll find out when you get older. How much easier it would be for me to cry and yearn for the innocence that characterized my adolescence, but I digress. Lest I make this mistake and fall into the rabbit hole of moaning and yearning for pleasures of times gone by.

Now back to the domino/butterfly effect.

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For better or worse, every minute decision you have made has brought you to this very moment you find yourself in. The crazy part about it is that, it really isn't tied to major life decisions at times.

That's the domino effect, 1 knock triggers the next, and before you know it - all the pieces have crumbled.

From that college application you wanted to make with your high school boyfriend, to that toxic relationship you found yourself falling back into, to that job interview you snubbed and that 1pm order you made for KFC.

Every choice we make, has an effect on the outcome of where we end up. It seems innocent and insignificant because we expect the serious life decisions we make to have the overarching and easily noticeable consequences/impact in our lives for example - marriage.

To find out how easy it is, think about how you have met a romantic partner, and please I'm not referring to your psychotic scheme where you deliberately set everything up to meet your significant other.

Think about that 1 time you stopped to tie your shoelaces, or adjust your jacket before you crossed the road. Take a moment to think about how had you had made a different choice back then, you might have not ended dating that person, gone through all that joy/pain in that relationship and in the process learnt about yourself in a way that you couldn't have done so by yourself.

Now that relationship taught you a lot, which guided you when you chose your next partner and there are now some things, you actively look out for and purposefully avoid. You got to resonate better with a different type of people, or in a way - you've started gravitating towards a different social setting altogether.

Time and time again, I've apologized for lacking the drive to write and losing my love for literature along the way. For the umpteenth time - forgive me for I have been growing.

I mean, I still am - I haven't stopped growing but for a change, I have started learning.

This is in no way my Kumbaya moment but I do love writing in the wee hours of the moment, away from my day job, the pressures and I can flow to the sweet sound of silence.

I've launched Scribe263 and I am going to try to write more, invite different writers, collaborate more and take a decisive creative space.

Stay tuned for part 2 on this topic. This was just an introduction, I have more thoughts on this Butterfly Effect.

forgive me, I used my Notes app for this one.

peace✌🏾